Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Wild wild west


This is an illustration from my illustrated journal. I started the illustration in November when my workplace, senior high school in a middle-sized Swedish town, felt more like the wild wild west. I got around to sit in the sofa and color it last night. The story and inspiration to this illustration is a rather crazy period at work. I have in short time as a teacher experienced things that I didn't even think teachers had to deal with. Bitch slaps, incident rapports, expelled students, anxciety, social problems and kid waiting to get deported from Sweden after longtime here.

What was bad language when I was a teenager is today not even considered as swearing. Words, phrases and sentences that I and many with me would never dream of thinking never mind saying out load is what teens of today ( of course not all but my students does) call each other and shouts in the corridor.  That every student get their own computer through school is great but also the computer has a lot of fun stuff to offer and to take teenagers attention. Mobile phone is not allowed in the classroom but to execute that forbid I would have to hire a security guard who can control and to take them of the students. Wild wild west somedays and I guess that why I like my job so much..

Friday, January 6, 2017

Mila 4


Time flies too fast. Our little baby just turned 4 years old, F O U R Y E A R!!! How that happened ?! It is crazy what a big girl she is now. So sweet, funny, extra super intelligent, bad mood when tired, creative and the bestest girl in the whole world. Me and L agreed the other day that she gives us more love then we can ever ask for. She tells us how much she loves us like 100 times each day in both Swedish and English. In the morning, in the car, in the busy super market cue, mocking out the stable, on the walk, when I leave her at daycare and when I pick her up she looks at me and with the sweetest voice she says "Mamma! Jag älskar dig!!" Please let her continue feeling that love for us forever and please please keep telling us it sounds so sweet and heartwarming. Yes of course she also tells me sometimes that I am stupid and "a bajskorv" ( a turd)  but not as often as she tells me how great I am and the best mamma in the world. It is overwhelming how much I want to protect her from everything bad or even everything which is not perfect and how I would do anything for her.

I overheard her talking with some toys upstairs. She was explaining what princesses do.. Like a job description for princessess. " Princesses puts make-up on. And they work together with kings. And they take care about babies" She she might like princess dresses and know about make-up but at least her dream job is to work as a machine-driver to drive a wheel loader to be specific.


Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Happy New Year 2017

Happy New Year 2017 !! 
Good health and happiness is what I am wishing for
Also some of my humble expectations for 2017
Good fun, continue my teaching job, house in Örebro, lots of fun with the team, trip to Prague, trip to anywhere to enjoy more pulse then country life and good times and development with the horse. 
I will quote Mr Nikolovski "Thank you and Fuck you 2016"  

My year was not all that bad I have to say but I do understand where he is coming from. The hard part was that the team was so much apart. Though for L to travel back and forth to Moscow could never really relax always thinking that soon he has to leave. Hard for me and the kids to wave bye bye and to manage by ourselves and missing each other. Moscow was not a city for us, a good experience and good memories and friends of course but also a lot of anxciety not feeling home not managing to adapt 100 %. It was a relief that we made the decision that me and kids will head home to Sweden and heartbreaking at the same time to split team for some time which we at the time had no idea for how long. 

I got teaching job a new carrier path for me and a new step for Team Nikolovski with routines with job and daycare. Schooling in at daycare took for ever. Mila was begging not to go there and crying crocodile tears for 2-3 months. Filip was howling already in the car every morning when I turned up to daycare. Granddad Stefan was there with them and supported. And so came the day when it was no tears and no screaming and both kids actually wanted to go to daycare..... Halleluja what a relief and so nice now when they want to be there and are having great time with teacher and small friends.

Two puppies came to Lundsätter in April, Bozze & Zita. My dad wanted company and bought two puppies that he left with me!! Potty training TWO puppies all summer together with having two small kids = my God how I managed not to go insane or did I go insane ?

End of the summer me and a friend of mine bought a horse, Qina Swedish warmblood 12 years old with good bloodlines, great movements but very green and only ridden for a couple of years. Are we insane?! Yes we are. Two mothers with small children with no time but a passion for horse and stable life as simple and crazy as that. Mr Nikolovski who always has said no way to having horse said nothing and I went along and came home with a horse. What he has realized is that I am a much nicer and happier person, wife and mother if I get to go and mock shit and ride a bit and so therefore he will during first quarter of 2017 become part owner.

Lundsätter did continue to be developed with patio, patio fence, repainted the small house, concrete base on our short-side but we will slow down during 2017 ( my dad will not slow down and whatever we say he does what he wants anyway... He will forever clean garage and then a week later make it a crazy mess again and move things from one place to another) Team Nikolovski will fully enjoy Lundsätter and the beauty of living on the country-side. No rush but we are looking for place in Örebro as we need a urban part of life also.  We will see if it will happen this year or not either way we are good and have all we need - each other! 





Thursday, December 29, 2016

Christmas present for dear friend

Christmas came and passed so fast this year. I never really got Christmas feeling although I did enjoy it very much. But not so very crisp Christmasy when it is 8 degres outside and kind of spring in the air. I started drawing Christmas cards in October but never managed to get anything done or send any... However I did manage to create one Christmas present this year. This is a family portrait of my dear friend and her family. 





Sunday, December 11, 2016

Sketchbook journal: Halloween

I am truly crap in writing lately. Not that I am not creating things or pre-thinking what I am planning to write or lacking funny stories to write.. But I just simply doesn't manage to put pen on paper. I know not end of the day but kind of feel bad if I let go of my blog it is my way of getting me writing and being creative in words together with my illustrations. Ok enough about that... Here is not a vey new post but I never got a round to post it so here it goes..
This is a memory from 2016 Halloween. Last year we were in Ivakino Moscow and the kids were ringing on our door bell every two minutes asking trick or treat. AND I had forgotten to by sweets. It was going on for hours and at first I found sweets that we had got from the company for Christmas the year before but after given away last bits of chocolate, nuts and fruit it felt like a never ending nightmare.
This year back in Sweden no trick or treat as we live million miles out in the forrest and no kids can get here. But we organized a great halloween day in the stables with gymkhana competition for the kids and a ghoost treasure hunt. Great fun and kids also had fun.



Wednesday, November 23, 2016

Sketchbook journal: Bathtub magic

It is not that long time ago when both my kids fitted in the small portable bathtub without any problems. A few weeks ago I realized that it really is a hassle trying to fit both in it these days. I had to instruct them where to put arms and legs to even mange to get in together. Poor kids but as I had said they could take a bath it was no way I could pull the whole idea off without trying to squeeze them both in. My god they are grown up so fast. It was like yesterday Filip could hardly sit by himself and now he is running around and understands everything. 




Friday, November 4, 2016

News from my hat production



Here is some of my hats that has been created lately. I have now used up the last pieces of my elephant fabric which I love. And the new fabric with feathers I find very nice and a great unisex fabric. Also the Dala horse fabric I got from my friend Christine who asked me to use it and so I made her 1,5 year old daughter one hat and her one matching hat.

Thursday, November 3, 2016

Apples from my sketchbook journal

You never know and I never know what inspires me to an illustration in my sketchbook journal. Sometimes the inspiration and creativity is gone with the wind and feels like it will never return ( I am sure all you creative souls can relate to that feeling...) and sometimes something normal as an apple can inspire. 2016 has been a real apple year. Not that I have one single apple tree in my garden ( although the cottage next door that we are renting out has one very small apple tree but our tenant has cut it like he was very upset with that tree and it will most probably never carry any apples after that treatment... So it doesn't count as an apple tree anymore...) but at Mila and Filip's kindergarten they have heaps of red very taste Ingrid Marie apples. And people in the stable has brought bags after bags with beautiful and tasty apples of all different sorts. Here is my illustration on the topic in different stages. 








Wednesday, November 2, 2016

Kindergarten Romance


Do you remember your first love? Or love maybe more your first boyfriend ? Ok yes maybe same thing I don't remember if it was love but I do remember my first boyfriend. I was 4 years old ( i think) he was in the same group at my kindergarten. My kindergarten was called Myrstacken (Anthill) and it was the best kindergarten in the whole universe. My teacher Irma was the best kindergarten teacher one can have. My boyfriend was called Gustav. He always used to make jokes about my surname, Book. Every time we were gonna read he was laughing and asking "are we gonna read Cecilia Book?!" Very funny!! NOT! I got sick and tired of these jokes and one day I told my kindergarten teachers that I had changed name to my mothers surname, Folkesson. The teachers changed all my name tags and my mother was very confused when she saw my new name tags but somehow agreed and I change to Folkesson even in all the official registers...
Gustav could not understand how I could pick fish and potatoes as my favorite dish and order it for the whole kindergarten at my birthday. Gustav picked on his birthday corn on cob and hamburgers. I also remember that one day when we were walking hand in hand to a sporthall he was looking at me instead of the road so he bumped straight into a lamppost.. We have much later discussed and tried to figure out exactly which lamppost he walked into.

Mila has also found her first boyfriend at her kindergarten. His name is Melker and is such gentleman. He comes to greet her by the door every morning helping her to take off her shoes and jacket and to comfort her when she is sad seeing me off. During our last vacation she told us she was missing Melker numerous times per day and also spending lots of time think what to bye him as a present. When they go for walk they are holding hands and my god they look too cute on the picture kindergarten teacher sent us. Mila and Melker has already agreed that they will get married and Mila thinks Melker will make an excellent dad.  Too cute. Unfortunately due to some mess at the kindergarten Melker has changed to another place but we are trying to catch up and let them play when we have the chance.


Monday, October 24, 2016

2 months to Christmas eve

Today it is exactly two months before Christmas. I used to be like "The Gringe" not a great fan of Christmas. But now I like the run up for Christmas and all the traditions so much that I am even looking forward already in October. Here is some small Christmas illustration I made last year. 




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Mammas creative helper

In my sketchbook I started an illustration on the theme Mila loves horses. I know I am really bad in drawing horses in general and in drawing horses legs in particular. And so Mila gave me a helping hand and finished my drawing. Great cooperation,  right :) 




Wednesday, October 5, 2016

Last weekend & autumn start

What happened already October!! Autumn is here, Yes I love this season but it kind of hit me the darkness.. "It is still night!!" Mila says when I wake her up the days we need to go to work and daycare. although we don't get up crazy early. It is split feeling this going towards darker and colder times. I love it and hate it at the same time.
Last weekend I felt very tired and as I was getting a new cold before recovering from the last one. It doesn't happen very often but I had a Sunday when everything felt horrid everything I normally like feels stupid and boring . I hate these kind of days, but I guess we all have them and need them and that I am lucky who gets one only here and there. I went to bed early and woke up like myself positive and fresh again.

Pictures from my weekend
I have strict sofa rules.. No eating and absolutley NO animals in the sofa !!!! But somedays my rules are override BIG time!!


Sunday breakfast with candles welcoming the darker times 


When I was a kid I had a thing for dog food. I used to sneak out in our dog room and eat dog food in all forms. Hard crunchy pieces, soft treats, soaked dog food, dog chocolate in all brands. I still remember how it tasted. Filip is following in my footsteps. He insists ( read breaks down if he is not allowed) to feed Bozze so he can do a taster of Bozze's delicious food...


Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Daycare introduction no walk in the park




Kids started kindergarten 18 August.... My dad spend first THREE weeks being with them as an introduction. They refused to leave his side and if the teacher hadn't told us that we have to try to leave them there by themselves a little I think he would still spend his days at kids daycare with them ( very carrying granddad indeed)  First weeks (!) I had to pull myself free from screaming and crying kids to get to work. It broke my heart over and over. But worst to come... After this phase came the silent big crocodile tears. Horrible and even more heart breaking. These tears was accompanied with Mila begging me not to leave her and saying "but I love you and I want to be with you" " I miss you sooooo much" "Why do you have to leave me?" "Who will take care of me?" "I also want to be a grown-up so I can come with you to your job" These begging and her being very nervous for being left at kindergarten was more then heart breaking if that is possible. We were thinking this will never get better she will never want to go there.
During our vacation in Spain she started to play daycare and saying that she was missing her best friend there. And so came the day, TODAY, when she didn't complain going to daycare!!! She only got a little glace in her eyes as I said bye bye but when her little friend came running to help her off with her shoes I was already forgotten. So grateful for this development. People keep saying that it has been extra hard doing the daycare introduction at almost 4 years old ( in all well meaning) and of course that is very true she knows what she wants, can express herself and have more develop emotions. I agree it is harder but not for a second do I regret that I had the chance to be fulfilled and happy being home with her. She is now ready to be a little more independent and try new things without me.
What about Filip. Filip is only 1 year and 4 months and I think it is early for him to start daycare. Although he is a different character and also as he is born here in Sweden where we have family around he is also more use to having more people taking care of him since he is born. In Prague we had great friends but not same close connection with family around all the time as we have had with Filip. He has been hanging with granddad and uncle Christer since he is born. My feeling is that he can handle daycare. Also I am only working three days a week and get help to pick up so not even long days. Filip cried today when I handed him over but before I even went through the door I could hear him asking Mike (the teacher)  for different things. And my uncle Christer picked them up after lunch and Filip's nap.

Fingers crossed now that we are on the other-side of daycare introduction !!!

Monday, September 26, 2016

Qina


So much fun this horse of ours.. First couple of weeks tense like a ticking bomb and of course with our collected experience from the professional and international circuit we are being careful and taking things steady. Add that we are older, wiser and with two kids each. We are not only careful but maybe even chicken at the moment before we know our lady. AND that is totally ok. I am impressed this week I feel more secure on her and she gives such great great feeling. She moves great and are very balanced although green, weak and will take  a lot of training to build up muscles and endurance. Only in a couple of weeks she has learned a lot a really gives a good feeling. Yesterday I made a few jumps with her and she really jumps. Yes I am already in love with this mare

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Great time in Spain

We headed to Spain last week. Family collected in a warm sunny place what could be better? Flight down went well even though we had to get up at 3 and be at the airport by 4. Nice warm weather met us and we were all very excited to have time off together and to enjoy the sun and mormor's pool. Such luxury to be able to borrow my mother's and Göran's very nice house in Puerto Banus costa del sol. Going away but still feeling a little home or at least familiar and have every day things to do such as laundry, cleaning and feeding the cat ( I know sounds crazy that I like washing and cleaning on vacation but I do) Loren also loves supermarkets and cooking so great combination of vacation but business as usually kind of. Don't get me wrong we also enjoy being lazy drinking beer by the pool or eating avocado and prawns in the harbor.

Even though it is only our second time here we already feel like we know what we are doing and know our ways around. One day we did a long walk to check out the neighborhood and found great parks and local bar with local people. Otherwise our set up was looooong breakfast, swimming in the pool, Loren walking with Filip for nap time while me and Mila was drawing, lunch and afternoon going in to Puerto Banus for some shopping, hanging by the beach and eating.  



Filip since he is born is very much pappa pappa pappa's boy. First and more or less only word is pappa.. I try and try to repeat mamma as often as I can but he keeps looking at me saying PAPPA 
And at the moment it is only pappa who is good enough for everything. I am worth nothing and he screams like I am trying to kill him if I only ask if he wants to come to me.... Poor mamma





Sunday, September 4, 2016

Horse owner again

Yes it is sort of life changing this with me starting working again. It feels good that I started on a nice level with 3 days a week even though these days are very intense. New carrier path as a teacher is no walking in the park, but I like challenges and to learn new things so I guess this is just what I needed. I am trying to stick to my mantra to do things good enough. That doesn't mean that I don't care or that I am doing things bad it just simply means to do things good enough and not to stress over things or striving to be perfect. Already now I have problems not to over work or over think things but hey it is hard to teach an old dog to sit.
Kids and their granddad has been at daycare introduction for 3 weeks but I will write more about that in other post.

Last week not only did we buy a new car we ( read me) bought a horse. Yes it is true I BOUGHT A HORSE. I am sharing it with a friend with great knowledge about horses and who also have worked professional with horses on high level. We have been talking about it, that it would be a cool idea to share a horse as we both has small children and don't want a or can manage a horse full-time. And we are both doers and not only talkers so from out of the blue a very sweet mare turned up and we fell in love. She moves like a queen and has a lot of potential but also a lot of work as she has only been ridden three years. She past the vet check mo problem last Monday and came with us home. Very exciting and unreal. Not that I don't have enough to do with 2 kids, 2 dogs, 1 cat, big house, big garden and new job.. But horses is not only pretty time consuming but also gives me energy and the best way to exercise.





Monday, August 22, 2016

Back to school

So my new carrier and job path has started. I am back at school and still very excited after my first week. Great introduction days. Tired and little stressed to get all planning done before the students starts. 




Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Sketchbook Journal " Lets go swimming in Tolstoy park"

This is a couple of illustrations from my sketchbook journal I made while we were in Moscow from our local park Tolstoy Park in Khimki. The park is great and has all sorts of fun entertainment for kids and adults. Playground, mini zoo, carousels, dance stage, restaurants, cafés, selling corn on the cob in every corner and a sandy beach. Team Nikolovski headed there on a very warm July day. It was very warm and sticky. Me and Mila went for a walk while we left Loren and Filip in the playground. Our plan was to check the beach out. Both me and Mila got super excited that people were in the water so we run back to tell the rest of the team to hurry up and lets go in the water a bit. I was like "we are going to beach hurry up and bring the swim-wear" and Loren replied "Are you insane!!! Who would consider going in the water in a river in MOSCOW??" and I was like "yeah but there is lots of people in the water..." and Loren started to wave hands and speak very loud the balkan way "ARE YOU CRAZY!!! OF COURSE IT IS DIRTY AND IT IS EVEN SAYING ON THIS BIG BOARD STAY OUT OF WATER etc etc etc" Yeah you can understand how stupid I felt of course I understand that brownish river water in Moscow is not for swimming but I was warm and just kind of lost my mind for a second and in that moment promised Mila a swim in there. I had to calm upset Mila down and offer her to go and pat the rabbits and camels in the mini zoo instead. 







Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Prague map


While I was going throw my Moscow studio and arranging for moving everything end of the summer I found this map of Prague which I started but never finished when we moved from there. It was indeed a very emotional move leaving a place that we all loved and with great friends around us to the unknown life of Moscow. This map illustration I was planning to have on the wall as a memory of Prague and our cool group of friends. But because of all the emotions I think I never managed to get it done back then. It is on A3 so pretty big and I will try to get it finished and framed when it will get here in Sweden.

Sketchbook journal "Where did the summer go?"



Not that I am extra keen on super hot summer weather or that I am complaining because we have had nice warm days. BUT come on it is only first few days into August and it autumn kind of fresh crisp air ( read I don't want to admit it but I have put on heating in the house during the nights...)
This illustration from my sketchbook is inspired of what summer is for me and also from one of Mila's favorite book and film character Stella. I colored the sketch while I was in Moscow with my Russian made aquarell set and the colors are very intense and strong base colors and it will take some getting use to but gives a good deep layer. 


Thursday, July 21, 2016

Moscow stable life


"Mamma you and me we are horse girls" 
Mila is playing with plastic horses, soft toy horses, barbie horses, riding on her stick horses or running around being a horse most of the time. While we are here in Khimki, Moscow we have a stable 10 min walk from us. The stable is cute and the lady who runs it nice but not really the same standard as I am use. It is fun to have chance to let Mila ride the little pony Marta and to hang in a well known environment but still so different. For example look at the tiniest stable aisle how the manage to get big horses in and out is for me a mystery.  





Sunday, July 17, 2016

Back in Gorky Park

We drove down town Moscow today ( no traffic so it only took us 20 min... Amazing) Parked in our old neighborhood at Shabolovka and walk to Gorky Park. Gorky Park is my favorite place in Moscow. A park full of life and always somethig cool going on. A modern and artistic park with great food places, Garage Contemporary art museum, play ground and view over Moscow River. Today it was boiling hot sunny weather and we had a great time. It was fun to see Garage museum new building impressive and funky. The Urs Fischer clay YES project outside was super cool. 200 ton clay used for the project. 









Friday, July 15, 2016

Back in Moscow

We are back in Moscow and will be here for a few weeks. Great to be full team all together and to hang in our second home for the last time before we move from here. It feels like home vacation, home but at the same time far away. Crazy how much stuff we have with having furniture's and equipment for two homes and now we will soon have to store everything from here in Lundsätter.

 The flight over went well but it is certainly no walk in the park travelling by myself with 1 year old and 3,5 year even it only takes 2 hours ( thank God!) I have a lot of experience travelling with and without children and here is my best advice:
  1. Plan your hand luggage well with snacks, toys and more snacks
  2. Trunki bag is the best invention ever (expensive hard plastic bag for kids with wheels that the kids can ride on) I don't know what I would do without Trunki with a tired 3,5 year old and hundred kilometers to passport control. With Trunki she can just hop on and ride and me easily pull and have Filip strapped in Baby Björn ( very unhappy as he would love to walk and in a zigzagging way dictate where we should go) 
  3. Go to the toilet before entering the airplane and force (or bribe) the kids to do the same 
  4. Breath, have fun and drink water ( but not too much water so you need toilet...)