Mini-vacation to Leiden

We went on a trip to Leiden in The Netherlands last week. We have friends from Prague who has lived there for a year and so we took the opportunity to meet up with them before they move back to Prague end of this month. Düsseldorf is close to the dutch boarder and to Leiden only 2,5 hours. Of course we stop on the road at a real dutch pancake place, Pannenkoekhuis Den Strooper in Arnhem. And also first day in I think 3 months we needed to put on a hoody and finally a real heavy rain fell.

We had booked a room at the Holiday inn - family friendly it said on the webpage... Ohhh my God, yes family friendly indeed like a charter or Finland boat ( if you have been you know what I mean) Buffet, play-rooms with ball pool, bouncy castle and also swimming pool. Euphoria for kids! And nightmare for me ( I am sure many adults loves this kind of set up also me not included though..)
I made an illustration on the theme...
Clearly different emotions for a ball pool... I can't help myself thinking about all those small dirty hands which has been playing before passing nasty germs on, but at least thank God the kids old enough now not to put things in there mouth (or at least better but still happens they lick something disgusting to try...) I tried to be cool and let the kids play not to panic over all the germs but then that back-fires and the three year old refused to get out. I asked nicely, asked nicely again, tried to bribe him to get him out, told him we will leave without him ( I know not great, but come on all parents do it right?!) then I walked away hoping he would follow, but he didn't.. Then I asked nicely one more time, threatening him with different scenarios that he will never be able to go in a ball pool if he is not listening or will not get the ice-cream I tried to bribe him with.. ( I guess he didn't believe me...) By now I am getting pretty annoyed and also I could see all the other mothers in that play-room finding my attempts pretty entertaining and I guess happy it was somebody else's kid.. I topped the entertainment with jumping in the ball pool trying to catch him!!! The three year old thought it was great - I was nearly falling over and super irritated by now... I got some support by a fellow mum and after spoken to her Filip thought it was boring so he came out and we could go. Get out and enjoy nature and not play-rooms...

And did we enjoy Leiden
I love the Amsterdam style houses,  peeking in to see their bohemian interior style, the canal, cute streets, friendly people, even the wind mills I love. I lived in Holland a couple years when I was younger, first place living away from home, and so this country and the language has a special place in my heart. We went out to the sea at Katwijk and so beautiful and funky bar. And to hang out with friends the icing on the cake, so nice to catch up and hear how life in The Netherlands has been. 

 ( Photo credit to Riina Tiira-Sramko) 

New Year wishes revision

As I have not been blogging for some time I have not had the chance to go through my humble 2018 New Year wishes in text - so now having already past half of the year let me do a revision of my wishes.


- A constant wish for good health and happiness not only for this year but years to follow...
- Having fun with my team on our new adventure and challenges - when I made this illustration I knew that later this year we would move again and this time to Germany although I hadn't shared it with that many people around me. Of course mixed feeling leaving our newly bought home in Örebro after only a year, but the experience of one more adventure abroad before kids are ready for school and we want to stay longterm in one place weighed up. Today I am sitting in Düsseldorf and it has been little bit more then a week here and from experience it does take some time to adjust. We have a great house, area and plans for our stay here. I know that it will be good and the feeling of belonging takes time to build in the new place, it is hard having this new in a place kind of anxiety which I am facing at the moment of writing. Hard to explain the feeling and I guess the feeling vary from person to person and some maybe don't experience it at all. I am so familiar with this feeling after 6 moves to different countries but also with that experience I know that with structure and time this place will feel like home. I will get back on this topic, moving/staring new anxiety...

- Less time spent on my phone - over all I do think I am not using my phone that much, or well it goes up and down. I have turned off the alert tune for getting new messages and that is great, I don't have the phone in the bedroom to avoid checking one last thing before going to sleep or taking my phone first thing when I wake up. Although being a little lost here I have to admit I use the phone a bit more when I don't know what to do or to get a break from unpacking boxes. Checking super unnecessary things, having contact with friends and family but also great help finding things to do here in Düsseldorf.

- Get back to reading good books... Well yes I have read a few book this year. I was so excited to get the fourth part of a feel-good book serie that came out earlier this year " Hjärtslaget i Rosengädda" nice sweet characters, eating good food and having different issues and I really enjoyed this last part of the serie. At the moment I am reading the latest book of Carlos Ruiz Zafon, The labyrinths of spirits - the fourth book in the serie of The Cemetery of Forgotten Books.Plan better and get up on time etc... totally not had to think of that since beginning of June when I went on summer break and before that my mornings are normally chaos because well mornings are not easy for me I want to do more things in very short time then what is possible and with kids having to ask, beg and in panic get them ready and myself and sent to kindergarten....

Be creative - During this long warm summer break I have managed to be creative in the garden planted some new plants arranged a part of the garden with pebbles and more. I have also used my creativity to rearranged furnitures and pictures at Lundsätter - I have a strong passion for moving furnitures around... Also having more time to start blogging and making illustrations again, lets hope I can manage more of that during rest of this year.

-Believe in myself and not listening to everything... Sometimes I believe very much in myself and are not listening at all to what other people think and say and sometimes I exact opposite.

-Not to get upset about minor things - I think I wrote this when I was having a coworker who was interfering in things and at the moment I don't have issues with that.

- Enjoy stable life... Not at the moment. I sold my SWB horse Qina in April. It was a good decision although hard decision to take. Qina was sold to a great girl which will enjoy her very much and spend all that time I didn't have with her. I am hoping I can find a stable here in Düsseldorf where both me and Mila can ride. Germany and this area of Germany is the metropole of stables for professional riders in Europe.

New dishes to be cooked.. No not really, same thing over and over in order to get the kids to eat.
Laugh more... I don't know probably not more then previous years
Beating Loren in board-games - no not yet but I will

New start / New adventures

I am back writing in the blog... And Team Nikolovski are away on new adventures again as we just moved to Dusseldorf in Germany from Sweden.
I have updated "This is team Nikolovski" a short introduction of who are and what we do.



Cecilia Book Nikolovski is me and together with my husband Loren Nikolovski, Mila 5 years old and Filip 3 years old we are Team Nikolovski. This might sound like a small team but be sure it is a strong team! We are a mix of European northern and southern spices with me from Sweden and Loren from Macedonia & Mila born in Prague & Filip born in Örebro. 
Beautiful Prague was our home-ground for three years 2011-2014. Working for Swedish international company and enjoying great network of other internationals/expats in Prague. After Prague we moved to Moscow a huge city with a wide mix between the past and the modern Russia with a population of 12 millon people. We lived in an apartment down-town, Shabolovka with walking distance to Gorky Park and Red Square. Later in a town-house closer to the airport at Ivakhino. We stayed on and off in Moscow for 2,5 years and gained a lot of experiences from this new culture which is far away and close to us in the same time. Since 2014 we shared our time in Moscow with our country-house, Lundsätter, located in the deep forrest in Sweden. Lundsätter, the place where I am born and the place where I always want to come back to,  where my creativity can blossom and where the kids can enjoy the nature and country-side adventures.
From  2016 we have lived in Sweden and  I have been working as a teacher teaching Economy and English at senior high school level, having a horse again, kids having a great kinder-garden and having grandparents, friends and family around. Enjoying sharing our time between town-life in Örebro (Sweden's 6th biggest city)  and country-life at Lundsätter. Although loving our time and life in Sweden we decided to head for another adventure for a couple of years. This time our destination is Düsseldorf  in Germany. We have recently moved and you are Welcome to follow us on this new journey here on the blog.

We are spontaneous as well as big fans of making lists and plans. We love to travel, organic fresh food (especially our homegrown tomatoes), colors, art and to enjoy life as much as we can.

Daily happenings & adventures of Team Nikolovski's are the inspiration to my illustrations and my illustrations are the base and inspiration of this blog. Why say it in words when you can say it in colors are a great philosophy, even though I like a combination of both.
The illustrations in this blog are mainly a combination of pen, ink and watercolors.

When school is the best thing...

I started working at a new school in August. I now work at a smaller senior high school with focus on IT, computer science and technical subject. I teach entrepreneurship and English. It is a whole new world I am entering a world full of computer nerds. I love it - they have a special passion for technology which I will never understand but a interest I fully respect.  I have already learned new IT terminology, about fiber installations, programming and gaming. Learned that computer nerds really drinks a lot of energy drinks, talks about LAN and how they build their own computers.

This school is a school where many of the students finally finds school a great place to be and not a harsh environment without understanding. A school where they can learn more about their biggest interest of IT and computers, where the classmates shares the same interest and passion and are friendly to each other. It is great to see and to hear how these young people finally want to go to school and have made friends. It makes me happy, warm and proud. A mother told me last week that finally her soon wants to go to school and when he comes home tells her what he has done during the day, she said that has never happened before.

I made below illustration based on a conversation I had with two of my mentor kids a couple of weeks ago. My English 5 students was working in smaller groups and I was circulating helping and asking how they were doing. These two guys are pretty shy and as I want them to use their English I asked them how they find their new school and if they feel they've settled in alright. The first guy looked at me and said that he really like the school and all the computer science subjects that much that he had recommended the school to people he knows. Great I said and looked at the other guy who is a very quiet guy "what about you ?" He was looking down and I was thinking maybe he doesn't like school but then he looked up just a little bit and said " starting at this school is the best thing that has happened to me in a very very long time!" 

Time flies already autumn

It is pity that I have not taken time to write here on the blog. I love having a place where I can write and have my illustrations collected and where I feel that I want update things. Collect memories and thoughts from this moment of life. Also to really force myself to sit down and put pen to paper. Writing is something you have to keep practice to find that nice flow and feeling to catch the reader and make the reader understand you thought, feeling or instruction. This year I am working as a English and Entrepreneur teacher and I am very much inspired as I am giving my students a lot texts and different type of texts to write. At the same time it has been a rather hectic past few months and that's why I havn't got around to write. We have bought a townhouse and moved to Örebro beginning of August. Kids changing kindergarten and me changing job, has gone pretty well although always hard to change routines. Moving the horse and learning the new stable routines and trying to get the stable-life to fit with the new town life. Keeping Lundsätter as a our weekend and country-get-away-house and organizing things there so we just can enjoy when we go there. Big hassle that due to the dry year no water in the well and we have realized what a pain it is to be without water in the tap.

I am back here on the blog and will now hang on and keep updating 

Family portrait Fyrö Gård

 I was planning to make a family portrait of good friends of ours who are celebrating their 40's birthday. So the other night I started a skiss of the family and their farm and animals. Always easier when I know the family to get the right elements and objects in the illustration, but also a little nervous to make sure I do them justice. And even more nervous will they like my illustration.

This is how the drawing started with a glas of rosé

And the following morning I got great company of Mila who also wanted to draw and paint with me while rest of Team Nikolovski was out biking

This is the final version of the family at Fyrö Gård

And framed ready to for party and to be handed over



And here it is hung in their great big barn where they had organized great party 

New fabric

During my trip earlier this year to Prague I bought some new fabrics at the fabric shop which I use to buy from while living in Prague. Although funny enough when I lived in Prague I mainly bought fabrics from Sweden and now when living in Sweden I found lots of great fabrics in Prague which I brought back with me to Sweden. I was super excited to make some new funky hats after the trip, this was in April.... But some how the time has not been enough for everything I want to do and have to do. But with me now having summer vacation I am finally getting time to restart my creative projects which has been sleeping for some time. I love that feeling of creating things again, gives such great satisfaction, and makes me start to dream again that maybe maybe I should focus more on my own business.
I made a few hats tonight which I had already cut out in some fabrics and when I want to cut more, I could not for my life find my pattern... I hate when I clean away things I need to places where I cannot find. I will take up the hunt tomorrow....

Regained energy

It was only like 2 weeks ago I made this illustration of myself and only 2 posts ago. My feeling of not feeling of doing nothing in the kitchen. "You used to like to bake and to bake with Mila" Loren reminded
And I just felt tired and uahhhhh 

But guess what after only 14 days of summer holiday I created these cinnamon buns

Midsummer illustration

It has become a midsummer tradition to make a Midsummer illustration, nearly just as important as the other Swedish midsummer traditions with herring, maypole and drinking aquavit. My mother and her husband are masters in midsummer celebration and are very generous and inviting as many members of the family that fits in their summer house, Lugnet. Team Nikolovski we have attended ever Midsummer at Lugnet since 2013 and are very happy to have this family tradition. This years illustration is in working progress and I will explain more the story behind the drawing when I am done. This is how it looks so far...

Teacher checking out

Ohh my God this school year went so fast. It feels like yesterday I entered that school building for the first time with the title teacher. Such great year, so much work, so much fun, so many great young people who are fun, lost and pretty lazy. Who are spending more time playing games or watching series on their computers then on their schoolwork. I had no idea what this year would be like when I started. If I would mange to gain respect and to teach these young people anything. A totally new role for me in a well known environment. Now looking back at my first year teaching at high school level I have really learned a lot and it has not been one boring day at work. Through given these youngsters respect and given them support I have got nothing but respect back.

It was an emotional last two weeks, wrapping things up and going through results and setting grades. And to say bye bye to great colleges and crazy mentor kids which I have grown very found of. I was exhausted by the end of the days and with a nasty cold on top of it it I was extra super tired. I tried to disguise it with flowers in my hair but still looked pretty rough. 

First day of my summer holiday break. I was thinking that maybe I wanted to bake but the energy nor the inspiration is not their yet. Maybe it will come...

Illustration journal WC attraction

I made an illustration the other day, an illustration on a theme which I am sure I have already done several illustrations before... How as soon as I enter the bathroom especially if I am even thinking to close or heaven forbid to lock the door I am the most wanted person on the whole planet or at least in the house. Kids can play or hang out with the other parent in the house or with their granddad but as soon as I enter the toilet they are running pulling the door wide open and looking very offended that I did not invite them to join me going to the toilet. If I ask them to please at least close the door behind them they are questioning why they need to close the door. If I ask them can you please please leave, I get back "But we want to be with you!!"
Yes I have got use to this and don't really have an issue with audience in the bathroom more then I find this behavior extremely odd and wondering when they will stop and not find me on the toilet so interesting anymore.. I mean they are 4,5 and 2 years old not babies. Also most of the time the dog and the cat are also joining. What I do have an issue with however is when they come in and are fighting over something or trying to climb on me...

Thoughts

Now when I am back in the stable. Being horse-owner. Spending the little time I have spared to hang with my horse, I have started to draw horses again. Ok yes maybe even during my none horsey years I did draw or paint horses here and there but definatly much more often now.

Or actually I have less time drawing all together and most days I think about scenarios I want to draw and to write in the blog and then I put the kids to bed and it has taken forever lately... Filip has real issues growing teeth and it is a nightmare every time a new is approaching. And on top of teething he has also had a nasty cold with even nastier ulsors on hand, foot and mouth and now a new cold again. And Mila was going through a tough development/grown spurt and also having issues to fall a sleep. And even when the kids are falling asleep as they should I also fall asleep and when I wake up I am either in a terrible terrible mood or need to do school work or are just to lazy and sitting surfing wasting my time checking Facebook or Instagram and then after feeling guilty for not spending my free time better. Why I do that? It is so stupid and I know I feel so much better drawing something, reading, sewing, painting or watch something on TV....

Mr Sunshine turning 2 years old

A bit late update..
Team Nikolovski has had a great weekend with a lot of birthday celebrations for our little Mr Sunshine who turned 2 years old. 2 years old and such a great little character and really our bright mr sunshine. Sometimes we wonder how it is even possible that we managed to get such happy kid with the most catching smile.
He is strong willed little boy with a mind of his own. His Santa pyjamas on this picture is hard to ask him to take off and drama when it needs to be washed. "Aaaa" he calls it and gets very angry that he can't have aaaa all day every day. Is interest is driving around on the bobby car or pushing little stroller around filled up with his tools. Shoes is another interest of his. He likes walking around in my, Lorens or Milas shoes and sometimes different sizes and shapes of shoes at the same time.
At the moment he climbs everything. Pushing chairs around and climbing up on kitchen top or tables. Eating sitting on top of the table otherwise it is drama. Favorite place is in the window in the kitchen checking if his pappa is coming home or eating his snacks there. He loves cheese doodles and chocolate. He reads Bamse while sitting on potty, or has his mum, dad or big sister reading Bamse for him while being on the potty. Walks over to his granddad to asking him to take him on the ATV or walking with him to the mailbox and back. Tries to ride Bozze the dog and Levis the cat, so far not managed. Eats Bozze and Levis food when he get the chance.
Happy Birthday Filip!!

Easter lunch Swedish style

Easter has come and gone. I love Easter decorations it is colorful and fun. I found some of my decorations this year but not all as I am organizing storage and boxes after all the building projects.   We made kind of traditional Swedish Easter smörgåsbord last Saturday. It was Team Nikolovski, my dad and my uncle. Treasure hunt for the Easter egg the Easter bunny had left of course. It was a snowy Easter - yes really real snow and lots of it... Looked more like Christmas then what you expect for April. I have had Easter holiday all last week and me and the kids went to Prague. Great trip and I will write all about it in next post.

Looking through illustrations

 So many different characters, situations and places I found going through illustrations I have made

Illustrated journal: Filip and shoes

Filip is one funny little guy with a lot of own ideas and interests. At the moment he is crazy about shoes. Or maybe it is more the feeling and proudness of being able to put on shoes by himself. He is testing all family members shoes and walking around in the house in them. Very impressive how he can manage to walk and run in way too big shoes. Less impressing that he is dragging mud and dirt around the house.

Illustrated journal: Chairs up chairs down

Working as a teacher in high school is challenging, fun and very rewarding. Teenagers are confused, lazy and pretty funny. One situation I come across every week is chairs up chairs down. While cleaning the floors cleaning personell lifts the chairs up on the desks in the classrooms and when I start the lesson I need to lift chairs down. Well technically I would think that I should not be the one having to lift the chairs down ( Yes of course if I am the first one in the classroom but I am not) But my students comes in to the classroom lifts down ONE chair = THE chair they are aiming to sit on. It doesn't seems to bother them at all that they are sitting like in a jungle of chairs. They can not see the white-board, not each other and I can hardly see them behind the wall of chairs. When I start to lift the chairs down they are not feeling uncomfortable standing up to help ( only one student helped me on his free own will so far) I am walking around giggling to myself as they look pretty funny in behind chairs and shocking at the same time that they are not feeling that they should stand up and help with such simple task. Maybe we did the same in that age!? Did we ? Really? Or have teenagers of today become more reluctant to help or to see obvious things ?

(Sorry for the really poor illustration with weird perspectives and angles.. But I hope you get a feeling of how it is to sit next to chairs.. Would you lift them down or just sit yourself down next to them ?)

Illustrated Journal: Unpredictable wonderful kids

Here is a wintery illustration from my illustrated journal. It was a sunny winter crisp day. New white fluffy snow on the ground and on the trees. Great weather to enjoy a walk and pulling the kids in the sledge. The mood was on top. I was holding my head up high in that silly way to really extra enjoy these most wanted sun rays. I walk to the mailbox and then continued and was thinking how wonderful that we can go for a nice fun walk and all in great mood. Kids were singing, smiling and enjoying. Lets walk little longer today as all is really enjoying. Bad decision... From one minute to the next the good mood changed for bad mood. BAD MOOD! Both throwing themselves out of the sledge screaming and complaining about something and nothing. Refusing to stand up. Refusing to go home. Refusing to cooperate. Being unreasonable. At the same time Bozze dog running to chase the neighbor and me screaming like a mad woman without any result what so ever. Feeling stupid negotiating with a without reason furious four year old and a cranky two year old, begging them to just hold together so we can get home. Kids are lovely and unpredictable big time!

Tabata training tomorrow

Tomorrow we have a theme day for all the teachers at my school with focus on health. Lectures about impact of what we eat, mindfulness and training. We could pick between walk, swimming, yoga and tabata. I picked tabata. I was the only one who picked tabata. I want to get sweaty I said  And agreed to have a private lesson in this high impact type of exercise with our Swedish teacher who is the rather typical Swedish teacher style of teacher = hard but fair. What have I sign myself up for? I am in the same great shape as this illustration I made 4 years ago = not very fit = not fit all. I hope tomorrow she will be more fair then hard on me and my poor unfit body. Wish me good luck.

On the body theme Mila told me this morning "mamma girls doesn't have hairy legs! Girls has prickly legs!" ("mamma tjejer har ju inte håriga ben! tjejer har taggar på benen!" )

I have a surprise for you

I came home late today after a long day at work. Tuesdays are my longest day and today we had conference about my rather rowdy class. Exhausted walking through the door my kids comes running to greet me with big hugs. " I have a surprise for you!" Mila shouts. How nice and sweet. Until I found the whole house full of confetti made out of a toilet roll. The granddad is sleeping in the armchair and my creative kids has made this surprise to me. "Do you like it?" Mila asks excited "No not really" such ungrateful mother not appreciating teared up toilet paper high and low.

Ostbågensdag // Cheese doodle day

I have a weakness or maybe I better say one of my weaknesses is Cheese doodles. I love these tasty but very smell snack that we in Sweden call ostbåge. Yesterday we celebrated the cheese doodle day ( I don't know since when the snack has it's own day but I don't complain...) I made this celebration illustration yesterday evening and as I was too busy to stuff myself I didn't have time to color it... 

Wallpapers & painting decisions

Oh My God how many wallpapers is their to chose between ?! No I don't have the interest or energy to go through all and I get into a give up I can't pick at all kind of mood pretty easily. So I have a plan. My plan is grey and white stripes. Stripes makes the room look taller and grey is neutral enough. Same brand as in the other room same stripes just a different tone. Great plan. And so I head to the store and all the colorful funky patterns are waving at me. I am trying to keep focus. Looking for grey! Looking for stripes! Looking for same brand as before! Writing down the numbers of the grey stripes and then I just can't resist a funky pattern next to me. I managed to sell in the concept pretty easy at home that we will have one funky wall that will stand out and I call it a "fuck you wall". A wall that is not grey or white or boring in anyway. A wall that maybe will be too crazy or that we will get bored of real quick but who cares. And I don't care about trends I like colors and I like to mix and match my way. So here we go, painter coming on Monday! 

Akvarell pro wannabe

I was watching this midmorning program on TV the other day and it was a boy on the show only 12 years old but really professional in making great aquarell paintings. I got inspired and thought I would like to paint dramatic serious aquarells. And so I took my watercolors ( which I btw has to go through and update I am missing a lot of crucial colors...) and a fancy watercolor paper  and started painting. But no this is not my element of expression so I added myself in a comic way and got pretty satisfied anyways with the painting. 

Illustrated journal: Main attraction of Afrika

Conversation at the dinner table about attractions of Africa. Mila asked me what we can see if we go to Africa.

Illustrated journal: Please give me a soft outdoor arena

Now please let Winter be over for this year! I am Tired of the frozen outdoor arena. Sick of icy road, studs and snow soles. AND frozen water buckets.  Please give me mud and more mud and I promise not to complain. Give me a soft outdoor arena where I can jump and get me and Qina fit ( fitter at least..) I am even daydreaming about how we are going to fly over fences like some horse cray teenager. 

Illustrated journal (in black and white) : Vaburari

In Sweden February has changed name to Vaburari. VAB is short for vård av sjukt barn which in English means "home taking care of sick kid" and statistically February is the month where most people claim VAB from our state insurance. And this year Team Nikolovski bumped up the statistic. I think we have been nothing but ill this month. I am sick of it. I feel like I havn't been to work in ages. This last week has dragged like no week before.  Or actually today I am celebrating drinking Champagne because today is the fist day without fever or higher temperature in Nikolovski household in 9 DAYS!!! Ohhh my God I never thought fever could last this long!! First Filip and after Mila and then my dad. I am drinking the whole bottle fast by myself celebrating and pushing away the unpleasant feeling that I am now feeling that I am maybe getting a sore throat !! 

Illustrated journal: Stable life

My husband thinks I am crazy when I say I need to spend time in the stable to recollect energy. I understand him when I take a step back and look at my stable life and how it is to have a horse as a hobby I can full see how crazy it must sound in a none horsey persons ear. I go to the stable where I am mocking, making the bed, preparing food, change rugs, carry water etc etc etc and this I call my own time a break from taking care of the kids..... And I go and take care of a 500 kg animal instead and call this relaxation... It sounds crazy but it is good for the soul and I am happy my husband might never fully understand it but accept it and helps me so I can have Qina. For me to just be in the stable and to all things a horse owner has to do and to get to ride a few times per week is where I collect all the extra energy I need. 

The light in the tunnel...

Drove home from work the other day (the only day I worked this week...) and got so happy that it was not pitch dark at 16.30!!!! Happiness !! The winter darkness in Scandinavia is a killer.... 

Building projects continues

Lundsätter buildning project number 155 at least..

Isolating and making second floor on top of my dad livable 

We have had builders here for nearly 4 weeks now = it will be very expensive but hopefully very good... Just hope it will be useful and worth the kronors put in to it. I am already starting to think about wallpapers and colors. Grey or stripy white and grey that is the question. 

My day

One kid ill with stinky stinky nasty cold. Even had to pay a visit to emergency ward yesterday because breathing was getting heavier and heavier. That kid wants mammas full attention around the clock. The other kid in the household also want mammas full attention also around the clock. That kid is also bored and has NOTHING to do apart from watch the movie Pets and maybe play with dinosaurs for like maximum 10 minutes. The dad is away visiting his family. And the mamma = ME is going nuts here at home.. Gahhhh sick kids is a nightmare. I know poor them!! But also poor me!! This is first minutes in the past few days I am sitting down by myself. I quickly poured myself a glas of red wine and tried to be creative and make a new banner for the blog. Not very successful but I thought the old one was like 100 years old.