Drove home from work the other day (the only day I worked this week...) and got so happy that it was not pitch dark at 16.30!!!! Happiness !! The winter darkness in Scandinavia is a killer.... 

Lundsätter buildning project number 155 at least.. Isolating and making second floor on top of my dad livable  We have had builders here for nearly 4 weeks now = it will be very expensive but hopefully very good... Just hope it will be useful and worth the kronors put in to it. I am already starting to think about wallpapers and colors. Grey or stripy white and grey that is the question. 

One kid ill with stinky stinky nasty cold. Even had to pay a visit to emergency ward yesterday because breathing was getting heavier and heavier. That kid wants mammas full attention around the clock. The other kid in the household also want mammas full attention also around the clock. That kid is also bored and has NOTHING to do apart from watch the movie Pets and maybe play with dinosaurs for like maximum 10 minutes. The dad is away visiting his family. And the mamma = ME is going nuts here at home.. Gahhhh sick kids is a nightmare. I know poor them!! But also poor me!! This is first minutes in the past few days I am sitting down by myself. I quickly poured myself a glas of red wine and tried to be creative and make a new banner for the blog. Not very successful but I thought the old one was like 100 years old.

This is an illustration from my illustrated journal. I started the illustration in November when my workplace, senior high school in a middle-sized Swedish town, felt more like the wild wild west. I got around to sit in the sofa and color it last night. The story and inspiration to this illustration is a rather crazy period at work. I have in short time as a teacher experienced things that I didn't even think teachers had to deal with. Bitch slaps, incident rapports, expelled students, anxciety, social problems and kid waiting to get deported from Sweden after longtime here. What was bad language when I was a teenager is today not even considered as swearing. Words, phrases and sentences that I and many with me would never dream of thinking never mind saying out load is what teens of today ( of course not all but my students does) call each other and shouts in the corridor.  That every student get their own computer through school is great but also the computer has a lot of ...

Time flies too fast. Our little baby just turned 4 years old, F O U R Y E A R!!! How that happened ?! It is crazy what a big girl she is now. So sweet, funny, extra super intelligent, bad mood when tired, creative and the bestest girl in the whole world. Me and L agreed the other day that she gives us more love then we can ever ask for. She tells us how much she loves us like 100 times each day in both Swedish and English. In the morning, in the car, in the busy super market cue, mocking out the stable, on the walk, when I leave her at daycare and when I pick her up she looks at me and with the sweetest voice she says "Mamma! Jag älskar dig!!" Please let her continue feeling that love for us forever and please please keep telling us it sounds so sweet and heartwarming. Yes of course she also tells me sometimes that I am stupid and "a bajskorv" ( a turd)  but not as often as she tells me how great I am and the best mamma in the world. It is overwhelming how much...

Happy New Year 2017 !!  Good health and happiness is what I am wishing for Also some of my humble expectations for 2017 Good fun, continue my teaching job, house in Örebro, lots of fun with the team, trip to Prague, trip to anywhere to enjoy more pulse then country life and good times and development with the horse.  I will quote Mr Nikolovski "Thank you and Fuck you 2016"   My year was not all that bad I have to say but I do understand where he is coming from. The hard part was that the team was so much apart. Though for L to travel back and forth to Moscow could never really relax always thinking that soon he has to leave. Hard for me and the kids to wave bye bye and to manage by ourselves and missing each other. Moscow was not a city for us, a good experience and good memories and friends of course but also a lot of anxciety not feeling home not managing to adapt 100 %. It was a relief that we made the decision that me and kids will head home to Sweden and...